Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Life

For the past couple of weeks I've felt that I've just hit a wall. I so long for something different and yet, I'm stuck doing the same thing that I've been doing the past 7 years. Work is just not fun at all and it is such a shame that I spend most of my waking hours there-- interacting with people that are not family and not friends (per se, I get along fine with my co-workers).

I'm praying so desperately for a "change." I need it. I don't know how much more of me I can give to a place. To anyone really (except Grant).

This is not to say that I don't enjoy my work-free time at home and with Grant. I LOVE those times and look forward to those times. It is just that those times are so small compared to the 40 hour work week.

Grant and I have talked and he's even given me a future date that I can quit my day job (if we don't have a child by then). I tell you, it was the best gift he could have given me. I need that deadline. I need to look forward to something.

Just a little rant for a gloomy Wednesday.

Please Lord give me the strength to continue this journey!!!

5 comments:

Jan said...

I fully know the feeling you have. When Jason gave me my "quit date", it was the best gift he could have given me. Even though I still had quite a bit of work time left before I could quit, I knew there was an end to it and had a date to go off of. It made things easier. I'll be praying for you as you wait for that date to arrive (or a baby.....hoping for baby first). :) In the meantime, you keep trucking with your gorgeous quilts and creations. I can see you quitting early because you're making a good supplement income with your Etsy sales. Keep it up! :)

Kitchen Stewardship said...

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Good luck!
Katie @ Kitchen Stewardship

Krystal (aka Pirouette) said...

I feel that way everyday. I think it's hard for us creative types to be happy and content stuck behind a desk all day. I know God will give you the extra umph! you need to persevere until your quit day comes.

Sarah said...

I've been praying for you everyday about having a baby, and I'll add this other stuff to my prayers for you. I know how you feel. It's very much the same for me right now too...being in limbo...needing a change...feeling uncertain. All of which adds up to anxiety and restlessness! It seems to be going around like the flu =)

Andrea and Grant said...

Thank you so much Sarah and Jan- it's so nice to know that others are talking to God on your behalf! I'm hoping there will be some good news to share soon.